Underthecurrent


June 28, 2016, 2:45 am
Filed under: Uncategorized

It was like a book with so many chapters.

Some were forgettable, bridges, pieces that might have been cut by better editors.

This is the way to explain it, now.

“Why bother? ”

About that moment where something will happen next.  What if we did things that won’t be forgotten?  Little bright points of humanity.  How many conversations get boxed up into little hours that can be retrieved?

We did and said the things we wanted, sometimes wrong but more often right.

 

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Itchy fingers
June 17, 2016, 4:01 am
Filed under: when I grow up

Lately the urge to write is pressing, poems pour our midday on pads where it must look like intense notes are being taken, maybe almost ten years since that last happened.

Think about L. and M.

Nearly ten years ago, this couple that lived mostly in a tent, arriving by way of overlander from unstated adventure.  They spent long days making food, living in and by the sea, sipping beer, seeming happy.  There’s this picture of them and a friend of mine, smiling and casually waving on a porch that is emblematic of that idyllic stretch.  A few years older and versed in the world, it seemed like the goal.

The thing about L and M is that after those months faded, they stayed, and broke up.  She made a bad decision with a way too young bartender that looked like an unshaven muppet.  If memory serves, the muppet then ran off with some new conquest and L broke her hand giving him a long due punch.  This story would be told years later in whisper tones.  The allegory of L and M.

It’s not clear why this rises to the top now.  Maybe because it’s a warning about disengaging too fully from these adult expectations, wandering a little too far into neverland, stagnating to the point of going down the rabbit hole.

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Here, we teeter above that.  There should be just enough to step out of this life for a moment, take some time, see some things.  Not so different from L and M, probably about the same age they were, although in your early twenties everyone who is older is just “older” (this year I am nearing the age I was when I met T.E., my friend, mentor and guardian, which has created an entirely different insight into our relationship).

There is no illusion that this is not some round-the-world gap year, the ‘About’ portion of this will not read “I sold all my things and quit my corporate job so I could have this amazing endless journey.

First, of course, because that would mean owning things worth selling.

But where makes sense now?  In the world, it’s almost always clear where the solo twenty somethings run wild, in fact there are many stereotypical versions of that experience to have:  working holiday in the commonwealth, voluntourism, SE Asia trek, hostelling in Europe.  There’s also the retiree tour:  villas in Spain or Mexico, RV living, central american apartments.  It’s not completely clear what makes sense in between that time, other than the I-sold-all-my-things version.

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The secret is L and M went home, apart, and eventually found a way back, and now there are pictures of them every week taking long sweet walks and playing with dogs.



Texas Forever
June 13, 2016, 4:00 am
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The plane loops and winds before it diverts, stretching four hours into eight.  The shuttle driver at the airport, more than twelve hours after leaving home, is a blast of happiness controlling the A/C with enthusiasm that gets tipped $5.

This hotel is fancy, like maybe they think I might rob the place? That I’m famous? So many people are talking to me as I wander up to the elevator.  Pushing the buttons.  This is a Pretty Woman moment.

The bellboy brings in a cot nicer than my bed that isn’t supposed to be in here and there is no charge for, gets tipped $5.  Talks about working at a coffee shop for six years, recommends we check it out.

The weekend is a blur of hazy heat, big portions and some dance clubs.  At one point, two men do full splits at the same time on the dance floor and the bar buys us shots.  There are some free nipples, actually quite a few. We eat BBQ.  We accidentally crash the VIP area of a sold out concert.

There is some strangeness, has it been five years? More. It’s a meditation on friendship, which is a less predictable thing than we like to think.  It feels like there’s not enough time, too many words, maybe this is the last time, who knows.